I have a zillion things to do, and here I am, blogging you and peeking at websites that I can visit later. I am leaving for Nashville tomorrow, going to a publishing conference. Taking such a huge step of faith frightens me. I know God wants me to go to this conference. I do not doubt that He wants me to write; that along with being a mom and a wife, He created me to be a writer.
It has been hard this week, to focus on God and not on how frightened I am and how unprepared I feel. My faith voice tells me to focus on God and not on the task at hand. My reality voice tells me that I have a million (ok, so it’s not a “zillion,” like I said earlier) things to do and that focusing on God ain’t gonna’ get them done!
Meanwhile, I have myself so tired or stressed – I’m not sure which – that I have tonsillitis, something I get only when I’m pushing myself too hard.
It really does not have to be this big of a deal!
I’m just going to a conference, sitting in a chair, and listening to people tell me about the publishing business. I do have to give a 30-second pitch to everyone at lunch one day, and I will need to make a few appointments to talk to editors. But, really, it’s not that big of a deal!
It’s amazing how we humans can blow things out of proportion. In only 6 months from now, even in just a week from now, I will be concerned about something else, so concerned that I am consumed with it — and I will have forgotten my concern for this conference.
Psalm 119:37 “Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, And revive me in Your way.” I prayed this verse this morning, after opening my Bible to it. If you also are concerned with something, pray to God to revive you in His way.
Okay, now I really do have to go and get those thousand things done (it wasn’t really a “million” after all).
(Originally published on my 2004-05 Keeping the Home blog)